what am i even stressed about? it seems like my mind is in an anxious state just because it is. as if it was simply so used to it that it won't stop, even though there is nothing to be afraid of. what am i afraid of? what is it? tell me.
is it that i will be alone, that i will have no friends? but i have friends, i have people who care. but does not everybody else have so many friends, and so many good friends? maybe. maybe not. don't compare yourself, even if everybody else was just like you assume them to be, they have a different path in life than yours. you started different, so you can be somewhere else. its okay, youre okay, youre socialable enough.
is it that i have to plan my trip to italy? oh boy, yes you have to do that. and you're alright to be a little afraid since YOU DIDNT PLAN A SINGLE THING AND WILL DEPART IN A WEEK. i dont need much planned, and i could just go without a plan, but i would like to see what i can do there.
stay calm. whatever will happen will happen, and you are doing your best. be motivated, but accept the future as it is, unknown and uncontrollable.