there is no real “i”, no real me and you, no real distinct humans, everything is “just” a huge complicated dance and flow of energies and information, structures and psychological streams of feelings and opinions, swirling around between humans and inside human minds which are, not even necessarily in an esoteric sense, interconnected and merged to an extent.
the distinction between subject and object, me and not me, outside and inside is not really needed and even an illusion, some words say. while meditating i tried to feel my body and then extend that feeling of “me” to all the other impressions i got from my surroundings, or rather: i let go of that distinction of “my body” and “my surroundings” and i wanted to achieve this feeling of unity and freedom of the constrained mind, however i didnt get there because i was still attached to words and concepts and desires, which is okay, however then:
i dont even need to feel it for it to be true. it's an illusion and it will be like that, if im gonna recognize that or not, i can rely on that.
these are just words however, truth not to be found here