one thing that i can teach you maybe, don't hold on to it. this feeling of freedom, the lucid breath, you can't trap it into your ego.
while meditating i was disappointed that i wasn't feeling free or in meditative trance then however i tried to accept even that, even that i cant meditate accept that i have an ego and having an ego is not a bad thing
and only after that i could feel free again as long as you try to reach it or hold on to it – it will be very difficult, if not impossible first accept that you wont get there, feel hell and make it heaven
the feeling of gentle, loving kindness the clear and fresh sword of ease in clearity comes strength these words are nothing compared to that, dont hold on to them either, its hard to achieve anyways
and please dont think youre some kind of superhuman or sth thanks