i just got extremely hyped by the rainbow family and also just festivals in general, it seems to me like real life is going on with some people! they're experiencing, letting go, talking to strangers, being open-minded, living the life that humans dream of. of course i'm romanticising.
im also being quite manic about going into psycare, now that i have tried it out one time. i want to get into it, do workshops and get certificates or however it works. and maybe use that as a sprungbrett to go deeper into psychedelic research or psychology in general.
i fear forgetting things like these so i cling onto them. what does buddhism have to say about this? i dont want to miss these opportunities! i dont want to live a boring life! i want to experience it all! i have to! why! im not sure! maybe its some psychological thing on me!