i fucked up about how i wasnt there when everyone celebrated your birthday at 12:00 eigentlich war ich deswegen beleidigt ich bin sosososososososososo uncomfortable around lieven why still it wasnt like that before if you just didnt fucking start to make me jealous that one time it started in exactly that moment when you had this moment of revenge on your mind instead of just telling me you felt jealous and im suffering for months because of that

but im not a victim im free and that jealousy will be there, and i want to blame you