cmoncmoncmoncmoncmoncmon
seriously! come on! why do let this happen all the time, now yet again another time.
it's not supposed to be this hard. initiative. the beginning. the start. getting youself together to just sit there, that's literally just what i mean.
i'm not even talking about creating creative creations, i'm not about wonderful works, astonishing art, thoughtful texts or critical critics. i'm only complaining about my struggles of starting, my inability to begin writing. where's my initiative? is it so hard to find?
there seem to be people who actually managed to develop a habit. i want that. just something. nothing big, nothing special, it's not about that, it's about something, just some little thing.