“all buddha did was find a way to hack your brain into thinking it is constantly fine, constantly okay. he rejected the normal way of life, which is an interplay of suffering and winning, the driving force of life and evolution. if enlightenment was the goal, we would want to commit suicide, end this existence, stop the wheel from turning. do we really want to do that? i want to live! i want to thrive! i want to exist! and this, this deep outcry against darkness and death, is what keeps not only the human race, but the dance of life on earth alive.”
yes, dance. but one talk of alan watts (i just listened to the beginning*) made me aware of an interesting fact: this is just the dance of dualism. white is fighting against black, as he would say. why? because white is better than black? You are better than Not You?
my problem with this deep outcry is that its painful. its afraid. its afraid of the dark. it does not accept the dark. it wants to live and only live inside its territoy it will defend. it does not want to experience the boundaries of being. it wants to constrain its own consciousness to that what it knows safe. structures. existence. expanding. but for what? i propose: enjoy the dance of it all. the dance between being and non-being. watch evolution happen, play with it, not because you want to own it, not because you want to be anything, but because you simply, purely enjoy the dance. giving up yourself does not mean that it will all come to an end. it will continue flowing. and new, beautiful things will arise. i could even say: you holding on to yourself are blocking the flow of it all, blocking new beautiful things to come.
something like that,,.
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